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Day 33 – You are not in this alone

5 Dec

Over the last few months unfortunately the husbadoo has not been in the best of health . Prior to that he had been working loads and loads at work and I got into the routine of managing the girls by myself a lot. I never really resented him working ( like the way I openly resent his cricket playing, actually don’t really resent that all that much when I think of it as his exercise , but I digress here !) ,I mostly worried about his hours and of course they were the one of the main causes of his illness. Then  when he was contagious and sick,I have never felt more alone in this parenting gig but obviously managed because I had to and even got used to it in the run . Now that he is slowly recovering , he has also started consciously balancing his life out a bit and though only time will tell if that is wise for his career  , it is undoubtedly the right thing for his health and the last few months have really taught us that health really comes before anything else.

Anyway with him choosing to do very little work over the weekends now and cricket season being over , he is around a lot at home and available to help me. We run like a smooth oiled machine when I have that support . I tend to often forget he is available though. This  Sunday evening for instance. At 5 pm panic set in – Beetle insisted on being held and /or fed, I had no groceries in the  fridge , a super busy week ahead of me and no plan on what to feed the family , I had office work waiting to be done that I ignored all wekenend and I was truly worried . For once I completely blanked in panic. It took me a while to break down tasks in my head and communicate with the husband . As soon as he realized what needed to be done he took it upon himself to take Bandar and go out for groceries , while I tended to Beetle and dinner . He then held our cranky little Beetle bug while I made lunches for the next day . Miraculously we got both kids asleep in bed by 8:30 and had some time to sit down and work on our respective jobs on the couch . At 10 pm he went in and got in the mail and we sorted through together and actioned and I finally did a little more cleaning , bottle washing etc and got to bed at 11 pm. I am glad I did as I have been up since 4 am tomorrow but more on that on another post . At this point , I am beyond thankful to have him around, supportive and partnering with me every step of the way.


Day 32 РSaturday 

4 Dec

Saturday started off well with me cooking tons. Baby Beetle cooperated with an hour long nap which is super rare for her . They say newborns sleep a ton but this one really doesn’t , so working around her shut eyes are super hard on weekends and our nanny truly deserves every penny we give her on weekdays !  Uttapams, chutney , paneer subji, custard for brekker and lunch were made. We then set up our Christmas tree . We had upgraded to a 7 foot one this year and it was fun to decorate, foot ladder and all. 

In the evening we bundled up the kids and met some friends at a mall we don’t usually go to. We ate at Noodles and Company, a favorite for me and the husbadoo though we hardly ever go there due to location. Anyway it was a decent evening. I got to walk hand in hand with the hsuabdoo and girls and I just felt so thankful for that moment.

Day 31 – Movie

4 Dec

I skipped two days of blogging and it’s a slippery slope in this kind of a challenge. I have already started to feel this is a pain in the ass and why the hell am I blogging anyway .Anyway I am writing three posts today for says 31, 32,33 and we will just see how long I keep this going . Doubt it will truly be a 100 days.

Friday was weird and bad in every way possible. The only legitimately good thing was I caught a movie on Amazon prime as per my colleague’s reco – The Big Sick . The previews had seemed fun and though I forgot about this completely after it released , I  am glad I managed to finally see it  now.  I really prefer shows to movies and sitting through and almost two hour movie on my own is kind of a big deal for me.

I want to record here that was bad on many counts , the biggest however was my breakdown in the evening trying to keep Beetle safe from Bandar. I think I scolded Bandar the worst I ever have and though she fully probably deserved the scolding for what she did , I should have controlled my temper better .I just got blinded in my concern for keeping Beetle safe. I also wanted to work at night on some stuff but my mood was super low all evening that well I did was watched the movie and went to bed 

Day 30 – Prep

1 Dec

I wrapped up my work at 10:15 pm and went downstairs to find the husband eating his dinner alone at the table.i started cleaning up the kitchen, washed a million bottles and pump parts  and then started on lunch box prep. Typically Bamdar gets a lunch of course and depending on my time one or both of us take lunch . I was so tired at 10:30 when I was chopping up stuff but the salad came together nicely and I am.glad I did it. 

Day 28 – Lights !

29 Nov

Driving home once daylight savings starts in November is a freaking pain in the ass. I hate driving in the dark. Everything seems worse in the dark . People are in a hurry to get home , traffic sucks , my nanny is itching to leave and has texted me once already asking if she needs to defrost more breastmilk for the baby, my husband tells me he is going  to be a little late and asks if I can get the kids fed and to bed without him – regular stuff that would happen even without the daylight savings being in effect but the driving in the dark seriously makes all this seem worse than it is . 

Anyway , the one good thing the darkness brings is the visibility of Christmas lights all around ! We live adjacent to a street that is known across the city for it’s stupendous light display . Seriously blessed to be so close to it. We will be doing out yearly walk through to admire the lights in a few weeks . But for now I get a glimpse on my way home and it makes me feel all merry and bright and brings a smile to my face.’Tis the season to be jolly indeed !

Day 27 – Trying to find a bright spot

28 Nov

I am so sick from coughing and coughing all at and night . I need to find a doc ( yes, I don’t yet have one here ) and get some meds as honey and ginger are barely helping at this point. 

Anyway that said here are some good things from my day 

– My lunch salad gets props.. seriously good stuff . Wish it magically made itself though .

– My kids with their goofy grins and hugs when I get home from work

– Work itself right now ! Thankful for it , enjoying it as hard as it is. 

Day 26 – Homesteading is over rated

28 Nov

Can’t believe I actually did not publish again..I have a feeling I did hit post and it didn’t for some reason.Ughh so frustrating !

A hunt in my kitchen shelves unearthed 6 lbs of whole wheat pastry flour! I had signed up for an Amazon subscription for this to get it cheap as at some point a year or two ago I didn’t have access to this on the cheap and used it for a lot of baking, including pizza dough . As it seemed to be past or nearing it’s expiry date ( debatable as the one date printed on the pack seems to be past but I doubt it is the expiry date and really does flour ever expire ? ) , I decided to make good use of my last vacay day of my four day weekend and use some of this flour up. 

So I started making pizza dough between Beetle’s naps . As Beetle hardly naps during the day this took the whole ten- fifteen minutes she napped in the morning. I poofed my yeast, mixed everything up and let it rise. 

I then picked another naptime to then get started on my applesauce eggless waffles with the intention to freeze these for an after school snack for Bandar. But today I guess the Waffle Gods didnt  smile down upon me and I was left with a goopy mess . After three attempts , I decided  to make the batter into pancakes instead and got the griddle hot but it was time to get Bandar her lunch and go out for our own. So I turned off the stove and off we went . Fours hours later we got home and Beetle slept for barely 10 minutes while I put some pancakes on the stove.But I burnt them trying to get the done as fast as I could before Beetle got up. I finally gave up and trashed about half the batter. The remaining have had yielded broken pieces of waffles and burnt pancakes . 

The pizza dough meanwhile was okay..the pizza we made for dinner was decent but I really do prefer the Trader Joe’s whole wheat dough. Bandar ate my crust though , she usually elavea the edges on any pizza. 

End of the night my waffle iron is in a mess,there are waffle and pancake crumbs all over my counters , the kitchen smells yeasty bready, I have used way more olive oil than I wanted to and I am exhausted. I have to now clean this crap up and really have nothing to show for my hours in the kitchen except pizza for Bandar’s lunch. Overall , I think if healthy options are available at a decent price , I will be going ahead and purchasing rather than making going forth . My time comes at a price ,at least until my kids are grown . Take my amazing moderately priced salad bar at work – the only reason I take salad from home if because I buy stupid groceries and feel guilty wasting . I should be spending the precious 30 minutes getting more sleep and not spending money on the organic greens at the grocery store and instead buying salad at work. 

It’s not even Monday yet and I am freaking exhausted.